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A Journey Down Route 66, Day Four

*NOTE:  Five years ago I began a journey across the country with Thiel, a dear friend of mine.  I was moving from Chicago to Long Beach, California, and she agreed to make the drive with me.  I present my journal of that journey on the corresponding day that it was recorded five years ago.  Enjoy reliving this adventure with me!

Day 4:  January 6, 2014

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All that remains of a drive-in theater.

We woke up early to try to make some headway on our journey.  The roads had all been cleared, but not salted, so they were a solid sheet of ice.  Still, we were able to make better time even though we still had to watch our speed.

The car was acting funny; it was stuck in low four-wheel-drive.  I stopped by a service station and the guys there told me that it was probably packed with snow/ice or frozen, as they’ve had several cars with that problem since the storm.  They told me to put it in neutral and see if it would switch over, which I did, and it did.  Such a relief!

We pressed onward and finally reached the border of Illinois and Missouri.  We had to do some more backtracking due to poor signage, and stumbled upon the Chain of Rocks Bridge, which had no signage whatsoever, but I had wanted to see it.  It’s closed, so we couldn’t cross on it, alas.

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Chain of Rocks Bridge, Madison, IL.

We crossed the mighty Mississippi into St. Louis.  The road there is extremely confusing and we drove and drove with absolutely nothing to see except strip malls and boring suburbia.  We realized that it was taking us out of the city without even having gone downtown (the older route we took apparently didn’t enter downtown at all), so we jumped on the highway to go back.  We then realized that there was one town we were supposed to go through in Illinois that we hadn’t even reached somehow, so we took the highway back there to see the world’s largest catsup bottle, Cahokia Mounds State Park, and Woodhenge, all in Collinsville, Illinois.  Cahokia Mounds was a native settlement and features large burial mounds.  It was the largest settlement north of Mexico, covering six square miles.  It was bitterly cold as we got out of the car to go to the visitors’ center, which looked deserted, and when we reached it we were greeted with a sign that said it’s closed on Mondays and Tuesdays.  Today is Monday.  Womp womp!

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The world’s largest catsup (that’s how they spell it) bottle, Collinsville, IL.

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Cahokia Mounds State Park, Collinsville, IL.

We went down the road a bit to Woodhenge, which is a similar site to Stonehenge except made of wooden poles standing upright in the ground in a huge circle.  We didn’t get out of the car, just snapped photos from the road.

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Woodhenge, Collinsville, IL.

We crossed back over into St. Louis and followed signs to the Gateway Arch.  At the parking garage all the entrance gates said “Out of tickets,” so we found another parking lot nearby.  There was nobody around; it was like a ghost town.  Even the parking lots had their gates raised so they were all unmanned and free.  We walked to the arch, freezing, and found that it was closed due to the weather.

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Gateway Arch, St. Louis, MO.

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We had to turn around and walk all the way back to the car without anywhere to warm up first and it was really uncomfortable.  We drove to another parking lot a couple of blocks away because I spied a restaurant that looked open and we were hungry and desperate to pee.  We went in and were two of four customers in the very large space.  It was really cold in there; the heat couldn’t keep up.  We ate and went back to the car to warm up, then headed back out to where we’d left off the old road.

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Trying not to freeze to death in a restaurant in St. Louis, MO.

It was once again confusing, and we somehow got dumped onto the interstate.  As before, I got off as soon as we figured out we weren’t really in the right place and I turned around and went back so we could find the old road again.  Finally we got reoriented and continued through seemingly endless suburbia.  The entire way the road is a sheet of ice.  The next thing we want to see is Meramac Caverns, so we stopped at the town before it to spend the night.  We’re currently in St. Clair, Missouri, in a lovely motel and hope to get an early start in the morning.  It seems that there is less snow on the ground here so I think we’re finally inching out of the storm zone.  Perhaps we can make better time from here on out.

A Journey Down Route 66, Day Three

*NOTE:  Five years ago I began a journey across the country with Thiel, a dear friend of mine.  I was moving from Chicago to Long Beach, California, and she agreed to make the drive with me.  I present my journal of that journey on the corresponding day that it was recorded five years ago.  Enjoy reliving this adventure with me!

Day 3:  January 5, 2014

Having slept in after the night out in Springfield, we got a late start to the day, but we also weren’t terribly eager to go outside.  There was a big snowstorm happening.  It started overnight and dumped on us all day long.  We checked out of the motel and set out on snowy streets.  Nothing was open for us to get any food; every restaurant we passed was closed.  The streets had been cleared but the snow plows were unable to keep up with the volume of snowfall.  Thankfully we have a four-wheel-drive SUV for this trip and it did very well.

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We drove in these conditions all day.

As we left the city and entered rural America once again on the old road I was concerned that we would get stuck out there somewhere.  It was a very tense day of driving.  We stopped at an IGA grocery store in a small town along the way, as every single town was shut down and no restaurants were open.  We bought some snack food so that we’d at least have something to eat.

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The IGA parking lot.

The road winds through side streets and open fields, and the snow didn’t relent even once.  The wind also grew stronger throughout the day, and on the open plains it was blowing over the road with such ferocity that we would find ourselves suddenly plunged into whiteout conditions.  I had to brake almost to stopping until there was a lull in the wind and then continue on, praying that we were still on the roadway.  I also looked forward to portions of the road where there were remnants of cornfields or clumps of trees, as those seemed to provide a barrier from the snow being blown onto the road from the fields beside us.  There was one time that, as the wind died down and visibility increased, I was about to drive off the side of the road over a small embankment.  There were long stretches of the drive in which neither of us spoke; we just focused on the ridiculousness happening before us through the windshield.  Several times we passed cars that were stuck or had slid off the road.  Each time we stopped and asked if the people inside (if they were still there) were OK and if they had called for help.  Each time they said yes so we trundled onward, hoping that we didn’t end up in the same situation.

There were spots in which I had to visually hunt for a piece of exposed pavement just to make sure which way the road went.  I have been very thankful that there aren’t many curves in the road yet.  For several miles Route 66 runs directly alongside I-55 and that highway was in really bad shape as well.  There were long stretches along which cars were at a standstill.  I saw one person get out of his car and walk up to the car in front of him.  It looked to be down to one lane that was clear enough for everyone to drive on, so I didn’t feel that we were in much worse shape for not being on the main road.

The snow was drifting across the road most of the day; the car would make it through them without much incident, but in one particularly rural area there was a long section of the road that was covered in about a foot of snow.  We plunged into it and came to a stop.  It took me about five minutes of maneuvering to get us out of it; I really thought we were going to be stuck and would have to try to get help, but luckily we made it through.  Many times I was driving on the wrong side of the road, because the wind was blowing from the west side and the drifts were mostly covering that side of the road.  I have never had to drive through such conditions and I don’t ever want to do so again.  As the day wore on we decided that we needed to start looking for a place to spend the night, before it got dark so we wouldn’t have the added challenge of navigating such a mess without the aid of daylight, and let the storm end.  As our average speed the whole day was 25 miles per hour, we only managed to travel 65 miles in six hours.  There was one bright spot:  The road suddenly changed to brick for about half a mile in one rural stretch.  It wasn’t yellow, alas.

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The Brown Brick Road.

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Henry’s Rabbit Ranch:  Hare it is!  Staunton, IL.

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Henry’s Rabbit Ranch, Staunton, IL.  Yes, those are Volkswagen Rabbits.

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Humpin’ to please at Henry’s Rabbit Ranch, Staunton, IL.

Trying to make it to one last town before looking for a motel for the night, we approached a section of road that had what was probably the worst visibility of the entire day.  Suddenly everything went white.  I braked, and just as I could barely see again I realized that there was a car stopped about 10 feet in front of us.  I stopped.  He seemed to be stuck, but the wind was fierce and the snow was blasting across so I wasn’t about to get out to go talk to him.  He tried to maneuver out of my way, but it was impassable.  He got out and came back to us to tell us that we were welcome to try to go around him, but there was another car in front of him off in the ditch.  We decided to turn around and return to the very small town we’d just passed through and hope there was somewhere to stay.  We made it back and stopped in a Shell station by the interstate to ask.  I went inside and approached the clerk.

“Is there anywhere around here to spend the night?” I said.

“If you’re desperate,” she replied.

“We are.”

She made a call and verified that there were rooms available, so we ended up at the Innkeeper Motel in Hamel, Illinois.  She made it sound disagreeable, but it was nice and clean.  The heater was nothing like the one we had the previous night, alas, as it was much colder than it’s been so far, but we made do.  Thiel remained in her bed the entire night rather than the tub.  The storm ended but snow continued to blow, so it seemed as if it was still snowing for a while.  Now we’re done with the snow but facing below zero temperatures for the next leg of the journey.

A Journey Down Route 66, Day Two

*NOTE:  Five years ago I began a journey across the country with Thiel, a dear friend of mine.  I was moving from Chicago to Long Beach, California, and she agreed to make the drive with me.  I present my journal of that journey on the corresponding day that it was recorded five years ago.  Enjoy reliving this adventure with me!

Day 2:  January 4, 2014

We started our day by having breakfast at the Log Cabin Inn in Pontiac, IL.  It has been in business since 1926.  When the road was repositioned, it now ran behind the restaurant, so the owners had it jacked up, turned around, and put back down so that it would face the new alignment of the roadway.  Thiel and I marveled at the inexpensive prices of the menu compared to Chicago, and the food was delicious.

After breakfast we went downtown to the Route 66 museum.  It was impressive, and quite large.  The older men that were volunteers there were very friendly to us.  One of them told us of his latest trip down the road to California in the spring of last year, then pulled out his external hard drive and started showing us pictures from the trip.  He remarked at one point that he had several hundred pictures from it and I worried that we wouldn’t be able to escape until we’d been shown every single one.  They were mostly interesting, though, and we did manage to extract ourselves before he’d clicked through them all.

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Me in a jail cell in the Route 66 Museum in Pontiac, IL.

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An old Cootie in the Route 66 Museum in Pontiac, IL.

Next we drove to a park across the Vermilion River from the courthouse square because there is a swinging pedestrian bridge there.  The river was frozen over (there were tracks through the snow on top of the ice as if someone had driven something down the middle of the river).  The man at the museum told us that we should be careful on the swinging bridges (there are three in Pontiac) because they can move a lot.  Of course this meant we had to try it.  We walked across it and back, and it did undulate quite a bit, but it wasn’t bucking so much that it was threatening to pitch us over.  The creaking made me a little edgy, but we lived to tell about it.

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The Pontiac, IL courthouse.

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Pontiac, IL.

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Swinging bridge in Pontiac, IL.

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Thiel on a Pontiac, IL swinging bridge.

We left Pontiac behind and continued down the road.  It’s mostly straight at this point, following alongside I-55 and a railroad.  There are so many railroad tracks in Illinois!  We passed through Towanda, Illinois and I spotted a very interesting-looking farmhouse in the middle of a field to our left, across the railroad tracks.

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I decided that we had to go closer to that house, so at the next road to the left I turned.  There was another road soon after that on our left, so I took that, then had to take the next road on the left to get to the driveway to the house.  It was literally in the middle of a huge cornfield.  It was a three-story brick house with a full basement, old and creepy but very impressive.  We climbed out of the car and walked up to the back door.  The steps to the back porch were rickety and there were no windows.  There were three doors, all of which were padlocked, and I could hear a smoke detector beeping at intervals, as they do when the battery is getting low.

The basement door to the right of the back porch had been broken off its hinges.  There were fresh-looking footprints in the snow around the house, and some snow had blown into the basement.  There were fresh footprints in that snow as well.  Had those not been there, honestly, I would have probably gone inside and wandered through that whole wonderful house, but it made me wonder if someone was still in there.  Being a horror movie fan I always go there in my mind.  In fact, as we drove up to the house on the dirt driveway I said to Thiel, “This is how horror movies start.”  She agreed.

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Thiel at the creepy, fabulous old farmhouse near Towanda, IL.

I walked all the way around the house, looking in all the basement windows, most of which I couldn’t see through, and all of the other windows I could reach to see through.  The most impressive feature inside the house was the front staircase.  I really wanted to go in there and go up it, but those footprints in the basement once again kept me from doing it.  As I peered in the window to the left of the front door I heard a loud bang come from somewhere inside the house.  It sounded as if it came from upstairs.  It was like a door slamming or something being dropped on the floor, loudly.  It rattled me, and then I figured maybe it was a shutter on the upper windows.  The wind was blowing very hard so I attributed it to that.  I continued to make my way around the house and look in all the windows I could get to, and I heard another loud bang.  I looked up and there were no shutters on any of the windows, and it really did seem to be coming from inside the house.  I decided that we should probably leave as soon as we could, but we wanted to look in the barn first.

I told Thiel about the banging and it nagged at me the whole time we were there from then on.  I made sure the car was locked as we walked away from it and went over to the barn.  I had to pee really badly so I told Thiel I thought I’d pee in there.  She said she needed to go, too.  The wind was strong and it was really cold.  The barn was pretty open so it didn’t provide much shelter from the elements.  Thiel picked a spot and voided her bladder while I decided I could wait until we found a restroom somewhere.  I told her this and, as she emerged from her uncivilized pee, she laughingly said, “I can’t believe you made me do this!”  It’s different for guys.  The wind was blowing, so my concern was that it could have changed course and blown pee all over me, plus it was cold and, you know, shrinkage.

Onward we went through long stretches of highway with almost no other cars.  In Bloomington I missed a turn and we ended up getting dumped onto I-55.  I got off as soon as possible and found the old road.  As I am that much a purist, I insisted that we drive back to the turn I missed so that we can say we did, indeed, drive the entire way as much as possible on Route 66.  Thiel humored me—well, I mean, what else can she do?  I’m the driver this whole way.  We drove the stretch back to where we should have turned, then got gas, turned around and drove back down the same stretch.  We were getting hungry so we stopped at Dixie Truckers Home in McLean.  They had a buffet so we pigged out.  It’s been in business since 1928 and has only closed for one day since then, when it burned to the ground.  The gas pumps were still operational so they opened the next day to sell gas.  The restaurant was rebuilt and they’re still going strong.

It got dark while we ate so we started thinking of where we should stop for the night. The next place there was anything we wanted to see was Springfield so we decided to stop there.  We passed through Lincoln, where we stopped to get pictures of the World’s Largest Covered Wagon.

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Route 66 can get confusing at times (there are newer versions of it coexisting with the original road), and signage can be spotty, so we had to backtrack a few times to make sure we were still on it.

We started hearing of a new snowstorm moving in so we’re concerned about that.  I’m ready to reach the point where that’s no longer a threat.  We got to Springfield and saw the capitol, then started searching for motels.  The first three we went to didn’t work for us, but we settled on Lincoln’s Lodge.  It’s newly updated and quite nice for the price.  We took our things in the room.  It was Saturday night so we decided we should go out on the town for a bit.

We headed downtown to a gay bar.  We ordered drinks and had been there for no longer than 15 minutes when a fight broke out.  Not impressed.  We left and went down the street to the next gay bar.  One of the drunkest people at the first bar was staggering down the street as we left, and as we got to the next bar he entered there and inflicted himself on some people.  We had a drink there, then went to a straight bar so Thiel could potentially have some eye candy.  Not much to see in ol’ Springfield, alas.

We headed back to the motel via Godfather’s Pizza, where we got some carryout.  Back at the room we hung out and ate pizza, then went to bed.  I woke up in the middle of the night sweating because our heater was that good.  Thiel wasn’t in bed and the bathroom light was on so I assumed she was in there.  The bathroom door was open.  Then I realized I could hear regular breathing sounds coming from in there, so I giggled, thinking she’d fallen asleep on the toilet.  I walked over to investigate and found her asleep in the bathtub with her pillow.

“What are you doing?” I said.  She woke up and told me that she’d been roasting.  She couldn’t figure out how to turn on the light, then couldn’t find the controls for the heater (the panel was closed), so she figured the best way to cool off was to lie in the bathtub.  Laughing, I opened the front door and fanned the wintry air inside to cool us down quickly, then we went back to sleep.

The latest snowstorm has begun and it’s not looking fun out there.  It’ll be slow going on this portion of our journey, I fear.  Ideally we’ll at least get to St. Louis before stopping again.  Soon we’ll be out of the range of such weather.  I hope.

A Journey Down Route 66, Day One

*NOTE:  On this day exactly five years ago I began a journey across the country with Thiel, a dear friend of mine.  I was moving from Chicago to Long Beach, California, and she agreed to make the drive with me.  Over the next several days I will present my journal of that journey on the corresponding day that it was recorded five years ago.  Enjoy reliving this adventure with me!

January 3, 2014

This move/road trip suddenly became “Escape from Chicago.”  On the day we were supposed to leave, besides the fact that I still wasn’t completely packed and had a ton of errands to run, the weather decided to dump a foot of snow on top of what was already on the ground.  We delayed ourselves for a day waiting for that to end, and the next day finally finished packing and loading the car.  I had to leave some more things behind, and purge a few things, which is hard for me to do—I have, apparently, slight hoarding qualities about myself.  There were a couple of things we put in the alley for garbage pickup that quickly disappeared as someone swooped by and took them.  Thankfully a couple of friends allowed me to leave a few boxes and one prized possession in their house until I can retrieve them later.

While we were packing up the car the weather started its next attempt at reminding me of one of the biggest reasons I’m leaving Chicago:  The temperature dropped and the wind kicked up, hurling the plentitude of snow around into new piles and drifts.  The forecast called for blizzardlike conditions, although there were clear skies and no precipitation.  There were moments in which the snow blowing off roofs did make it appear as if we were driving through a blizzard, and the streets were once again coated with the stuff.

We went to the very beginning point of Route 66 and started finding our way out of Chicago.  I still didn’t feel as if this was all a real thing, and I was very tired, but we soldiered through the evening hours.  Finally the city gave way to countryside.  Our packed-to-the-roof SUV was being buffeted by the wind significantly, and at points the road was covered in a layer of snow that had been blown back onto it from the fields alongside.  It seemed that this only happened in places where there was a stop or a curve, like something was trying to hold us back at every chance it could get.

I had brought a bunch of stuff from my pantry for snacks, which Thiel decided to munch as we were driving along.  She found an already-open pack of dried apricots and opened it.

“Are apricots supposed to be black?” she said, causing me to glance over and see said black apricot in her hand as it disappeared into her mouth.  All this in the space of three seconds.  I told her that I didn’t think that they were, but she’d already eaten it.  The look on her face told me that, no, they indeed are not supposed to be black.  This led her to explore the package more closely, and we discovered that the “Best By” date was in 2010.  Many of the other things in the bag of snacks shared the same year of should-have-been-thrown-outness.  Oops.  So far she has not become sick.

We are keeping to the original Route 66 as much as we can, and as much as it still exists.  So far there has been a stretch of about seven miles that we had to take the interstate because the road was absorbed into it, but thankfully the signage in Illinois to this point has been very good.  (Route 66 officially no longer exists, so the signs were removed several years ago, but there are “Historic Route 66” signs letting you know where to go.)  There are roadside attractions such as old-fashioned, restored filling stations, and it seems that every town has a Route 66 museum.

We drove about 100 miles and decided to settle in for the night in Pontiac, IL, as I want to check out their museum.  The first motel we approached didn’t vibe well with us so we went to the next one, the Fiesta Motel.  It was pretty cheap, but clean and the beds were comfy.  By the time we arrived the only food to be found was a Taco Bell drive-through, so that was dinner.  The wind howling outside coupled with the rumbling and sounding of train whistles from the nearby tracks lent it an eerie or lonesome feeling, but we cranked up the heat and read our books about the journey to figure out more things to see and do along the way.

I checked tomorrow’s weather forecast for our location and also for St. Louis and found that we’re looking at more snow starting in the morning with two to four inches expected.  Hopefully we can resume our journey early enough that we can start to drive out of this soon.

John Carpenter’s The Fog

I don’t remember how old I was when I first saw John Carpenter’s The Fog, but I was in elementary school.  We lived in the country with an antenna for our TV and no cable whatsoever; this was before satellite dishes became a thing, and whatever came on the three channels we could get was what we could watch, weather depending.  One of the networks would air The Fog once a year or so, heavily edited, natch, and at some point I started watching it.

The first thing that really struck me was the music.  The haunting, atmospheric electronic score has always stuck with me.  I distinctly remember my sister Katye and me staying up to finish the movie one night after our parents decided to go to bed (Heavens, it must have been from 8:00 to 10:00!) and I turned the volume up on the television—one of those old floor models with intricate woodwork and speakers on each side—just to blast the score as the movie progressed to its climax.  I remember being told to turn it down.

To this day I find that film one of my favorite horror movies—possibly THE favorite.  I became an avid John Carpenter fan, and later learned that he was also a Kentucky boy, having grown up in Bowling Green, Kentucky, about 60 miles from my home.

Today is the day in which The Fog is set, the 21st of April; hence my desire to pay my small tribute to it.  The beginning sets the tone with John Houseman telling a ghost story to children of the town on the beach:  “…[I]t is told by the fishermen and their fathers and grandfathers that when the fog returns to Antonio Bay, the men at the bottom of the sea out in the water by Spivey Point will rise up and search for the campfire that led them to their dark and icy death….  Twelve o’clock.  The 21st of April.”  For those fond of the creepy, there is nothing like a good ghost story, and this, in my opinion, is one of the best in American cinema.

 

Bullets on Valentine’s Day

I sit here in tears yet again as news is developing about a school shooting in Florida today.  I see images of children being reunited with their families, in tears, after having witnessed horrors that I can only imagine, and I hear reports that some will never come home from school again.  I don’t have any children, but I am related to several, and many of my friends have them; the dread and terror one must feel in these situations during the period of time before the condition of your child is known must be almost unbearable.

The usual questions surface:  Why?  How did this happen?  What led this person to do this?  We will wring our hands and say that something must be done about guns in this country.  Unfortunately I don’t have faith that anything will, even still.  And so another shooting happens…and another…and another….

I don’t have all the solutions, but one thing rings clear to me:  We are failing ourselves as a society in these situations.  And we are ABSOLUTELY failing the children.

Girl

There are moments in your life that stick with you, embedded in your memory:  Your first kiss, the first time you saw the ocean, the birth of a child; a number of things may cling fast to our minds for various reasons.

As a gay boy growing up in the rural South I had several moments seared into my mind, many of which were not happy ones.  At best they were uncomfortable; at worst they were terrifying.  I would venture to guess that most, if not all, of them were inflicted upon me by people who would proudly call themselves upstanding Christians.

The earliest humiliation I can remember is from when I was very young and in elementary school.  My closest friends were (and still are) girls, which apparently didn’t sit well with others.  My PE teacher started calling me a girl, which made all the other boys latch onto it and call me a girl, too—not, mind you, that being a girl in my mind was any “worse” than being a boy, but it was implied that it was “less than” a boy.  They already called me a sissy—this was a well-established opinion—so these words became synonymous with my name; in later years the derogatory terms became much more vicious.  It troubled me greatly that I was being treated this way simply because of my nature and the gender of my chosen friends.  I had much more in common with the girls around me than I did with the boys, so it was easier to relate to them.  I didn’t want to wear cowboy boots.  I didn’t enjoy “fishin’” or “huntin,’” although I’d done both because that’s what boys and men are supposed to do in the culture of the area in which I was raised.

One day in PE class we all had to do some kind of exercise; it seems to me that we were in the gymnasium, jumping up on the first bleacher and then back down, like step aerobics.  I must have been talking to one of my girl friends, or not keeping up, or not paying attention, but for whatever reason the teacher yelled at me and called me a girl.  All the boys started chiming in and doing the same.  All eyes were on me—the entire class.  I was a shy, timid child and suddenly found myself the center of attention, which is decidedly not what one possessing such traits desires.  After this I was called a girl with regularity.

I had mentioned to my mother at some point that something was going on; I can’t remember what exactly I told her, and soon after that incident I got up one morning for school and tried to play sick.  Mama knew that I wasn’t really sick and she asked me if I didn’t want to go to school because of PE class.  I told her yes.  She sent me anyway.

During the school day I was called out of class and told to go out to the playground.  When I walked out the door I saw my mother standing there with my PE teacher in the middle of the place where I spent recess every day.  The teacher looked at me and said, “Jeff, I’m sorry.  I didn’t realize that me calling you a girl was bothering you.  I won’t do it any more.”  Really?  An adult man didn’t realize that belittling a young boy in front of the entire class would bother that child?!?  It did more than bother me, as it has stuck with me my entire life.

I’m not sure how long we were all standing outside together, but it doesn’t seem like it was a very long time.  I don’t know how long my mother had been there talking to him before I was summoned.  She doesn’t like confrontation at all, but she came to the aid of her little gay boy.  I was mortified that this was happening, but at the same time so relieved and proud of my mother for handling this situation and protecting me.  It was a big moment for me.  Thanks, Mama.  I love you.

 

The Next Chapter

This is a short story I wrote.

The Next Chapter
By Jeffrey S. Martin

She closed the book, placed it on the table and, finally, decided to walk through the door. Its vapid contents hadn’t assuaged her fears at all, as it turned out. Most waiting room materials were mere distractions at best. She felt as if the nurse had called her an hour before, although at most it had been thirty seconds.
Just blurt it out Leah, she thought. Just blurt it out.
She entered the room. There he was. She saw him. He saw her. She was looking directly at him! He was real, and he was sitting behind the desk, distinguished yet ever so slightly disheveled. He looked up at her with a clinical gaze, sizing her up as she entered the room. She had wondered if he would, on some level, somehow, recognize her—if he would realize why she was here.
He glanced down at his appointment calendar to reassure himself of her name, then said, “Good afternoon, Miss Rutledge. What brings you here today?”
She smiled; it felt forced. She hoped he didn’t notice. “I’m sorry,” she said. “I’m a little nervous.” She looked around the room. Aside from the usual office clutter there were many, many books as well as framed diplomas and certificates listing honors and accomplishments. She also noticed that he lacked a wedding ring.
He chuckled. “That’s perfectly normal,” he said. “Cosmetic surgeons are used to nervous patients.” He waited a beat then added, “At least the first time.” She knew he was trying to put her at ease, but she also knew that she wasn’t a patient.
I should have let him know I was coming first, she thought. Too late now. Her mind began to whirl. She had worked through the scene in her thoughts for years, but now that she was here it was as if she had been struck dumb.
It is said that in the face of death one’s life flashes before one’s eyes; Leah felt as if this was happening right now. She remembered growing up with her two fathers, knowing something was different about her family. She remembered how they had been so honest with her, and how they had told her that some day she could potentially meet her biological father if
she chose to do so. She had struggled with the decision for two years after she reached legal adulthood, and now she was here.
“I’m fairly certain that I’m your biological daughter,” she said.
“Oh, is that all?” he said without missing a beat. “I was convinced you were here for bigger boobs.”
She knew it was going to be a good meeting.

Hello World!

At long last, after much deliberation and much encouragement, I have started my first blog.  I don’t have a specific focus in mind; I just plan to use it to voice my musings on life, relate my experiences, and share my writing.  I’m excited, and I thank you for joining me!  Yaaaaay, my first post!